last night

i am depressed but you come over and spend the afternoon with me reading aloud your journal to me running downstairs for cups of tea and plungers of coffee "ready steady cook" on the t.v on mute.
its been a running joke now that if your watching that program if you catch yourself saying "ready steady cook" if you find comfort in peter everett you really are depressed and you need to call someone and tell them
we plan the weekend glorious plans-you bring the lights and i'll bring the chairs and we'll eat out of tins for all we care it doesnt matter when your beside the ocean and with friends
i want to move there i want to run away do something wild and stupid but
it takes too much planning and
i hate goodbyes
we go to woolworths because you are hungry and there is a fierce wind out and i'm still scared of cars since being hit by one so i look left and right and left and right again too many times with my heart beating too fast
but we make it back home no worries decide to go to the musical that you keep raving on about the best of broadway you have seen it twice already and want to go again want to go again..
the huge pile of clothes on my floor is dirty i have no problems wearing them but you do. we dress up i feel crap we drive to your house you get dressed while i wait out the front and stare at your neighbours.


what a bloody brilliant thrilling musical!
how utterly captivating! i thought i would cry for the joy i felt when ten people with amazing strong voices sang together and that blonde guy singing that song what was that song from jesus christ superstar? i hardly breathed through it
i could watch that musical every night for a week.
you kept wooping loudly after every song amidst the thunder of applause, i think you would have stood up and wooped through the whole thing if you could have. funny that when nancy came with you she took photos with the flash on.
you know when something is good when you dont even think in it becos you are so captured in it.
so it was a bad day but a good night and a long sleep and some pleasant dreams (for once)..